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Falling into the emptiness...

Saturday, July 11, 2009

Like a crippled autumn leave,
My life went before me...
I was suddenly wiped of my childhood innocence
All that lies underneath all the hopes and dreams got shattered
I sat quietly at the corner of my room looking at the stars twinkling
Not daring to move an inch...breathing became so hard for me...it came in forced gasp
Afraid that everything will vanished into nothingness into the night
Leaving me alone and confused.
The mistake that have just been done...
Was the worst mistake of a lifetime
I suddenly became aware of how cruel life was
Everything has left me without a choice
My future is no longer in my hands
It lies in the hands of some unknown person
I felt like crying and.....yes....crying was what i did
Hoping that it'll provide me with some comfort
Till there was no more tears left did i stop
It was then that i lost all securities
I felt so exposed and afraid
Thinking about those times when my mother had talked
to me and reminded me of the consiquences of my actions
Not knowing if there was any hope left for me, I sat gravely there..
just letting my mind wonder off to wherever it went
Smiling when it came to the good memories....not that many came
And feeling another round of fresh tears coming to my eyes
When again and again....those bitter memories came back to haunt me
When will i learnt my lesson and learn to take charge of my life and be
responsible for them?
I wonder if even god would help me anymore...
I was left with nothing...and nothing was going right anymore
This is the life of a forsaken childhood gal
Who just wish she hadn't done what she has just done
But things, once done cannot be undone and words once said cannot be taken back too
Again and again i repeated to myself that as long as i'm here
Everything will be alright
But....this time round, mercy and hope was not on my side
It left me...not leaving a trace of any evidence behind
I searched in vain for it but nothing came out of it....
The life that i have been hoping for and the dreams that i once had were now gone....
How i wish life could just go back to the way it once had for me...

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