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A empty place...

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Day 5:
It was an alright day today...nothing much happen and
i have finally paid the full amount to miss khai.
it was a very big sum of money.
$20.00 for class-T and $20.00 for family day carnival.
I didn't dare tell mummy as it was a big sum of money.
I had wanted to wait till i had enough to withdraw from my acount
but miss khai got irritated with me.

She hadn't look too happy when i had told her that i haven't ask my mum the other day.
I know how it felt like but i couldn't help it.
It was all i could do.
She doesn't like me was my impression of her whenever she talked to me...not that does all that often.
In fact, she rarely talk to me except to ask questions. This i felt awkward and stupid.

Like a forsaken child i just sat there thinking if i had done anything wrong.
Secretly, i despised her for who she was and everything that she possesed.
it was an untold secret.
And she in turn, thought i was {a troubled kid and a very quiet girl
A little abnormal and different}
But little did she know what had actually happen
No one did and neither did anyone bother to ask me

But i didn't mind...
as long as they left me alone

My mother and i went for a walk tonight
She talked to me and ask me what i've been thinking about these few days
and seeing as there was no need to lie, i told her...
My mind is in a mess and whatever the result is,
I'll just face up to it
I guess its time i learnt to be responsible for my own life.

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