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Let everything go back to the way it was meant to........

Monday, June 15, 2009

It was a tiring day today and I feel really down. I finally realise that you can never rely on a friend no matter what happen. Cause friends will never be with you for ever. When they have new friends, they'll totally ignore you leaving you feeling like an idiot when you try to be with them. I don't know but seriously, thats how i feel.I just feel so out of place and seriously speaking, i'm sick of such people!

Like what wei long said, these people are just hypocrites! They have no friends and the only reason why they even stick with you is because they don't wish to be alone, or be left out. You really feel terrible when you find out the reason behind their every action. If only everyone would just show their true self and not be such hypocrites! It really hurts when you find out that the person whom you have always thought of as a friend would do such things to you.

But thats fine..at least it has thought me to treasure the time i have with my mum as shes the only one who'll always be with me no matter what happens to me. She's the only one i would and could ever rely on for help. Cause i know that one day, if i were to turn blind or meet with an accident and break my legs, the only person who'll always be there to look after me and care for me would be my mum and no one else.

Thats true isn't it? For these 16 years of my life, i've been trying so hard to trust the ones around me but it seem really hard to do that anymore! I would have been the real blunderbuss if i even try to trust anyone anymore! Its just not worth my time doing these things.

I really felt so hurt and i even cried when i saw what rina said to me on her blog. I thought she was a friend but it turns out that all the while, i was the only one who thought this way. So everyone was just putting on an act when they talked to me right? So this is the real them! So its true what sharen told me after all. Cause there was one point in time when i seem to suddenly doubt if they just befriended me because of the food or if it was really acceptance. Seems like it was all an act. I even thought i could finally put down my fear and learn to trust people and now, this is what i get for trying to be nice.

Its all a waste of time trying to be nice to them. Like i would even want to befriend them anymore. Like what i say, i'm so sick of people like them! I don't even want to talk to them anymore! I would rather be by myself. Afterall, you never know if these people ever mean what they say. They may be nice to you in front but that may not be the case when you're not around. They could be gossiping about you when you're unaware. Yeah...thats true! This was not what i thought of them or even wanted to think of them when they talked to me but this is exactly how i feel right now. Thanks to these group of so called friends of mine.

I don't even know why god even created me when this is how life is. No one ever bothered about how i felt deep inside me. They just simply assume that everything was alright and i was as happy as i look on the surface. Isn't that true? Well, its good they don't know me well cause i wouldn't dae say anything bad might not happen if they do.

So what i've learn from these people is that its never good to trust people easily.

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