Love.Story.

Time passes by me...

This is gonna be another hectic year for me again! Suddenly wish i had gone ite instead of choosing to come back to take my O levels! What with remedials to attend almost everyday and mountains of homework to do everyday, my life is turning into a total nightmare. the same routine goes all over again. but not like i would attend all of the remedial sessions so yeah...

Anyway, the latest news is that i went for some stupid companies job interview at hilton hotel like.....last week or so. This guy told me on the phone that it was a nyse company or something looking fro part time to full time paying $500-$2000 per month. regarless of whether u're working the whole week or just once a week. well, but the truth is only up to this point cause that company was not nyse! had to lie to my mum and tell her i was going to study so i could go for the damn interview! well, not like it turn out a total disaster or anything.....in fact, it turn out pretty good. just that i hate the part that i had to lie to my mum to go the interview.

anyway, i definitely hate the fact that i just broke my 1st new year resolution. i'm not gonna say what it is here but those of you whom i've told would know.

So while i'm doing my best to study hard and concentrate on my studies so i could pass my O levels, i'm also trying my best to forget about...........what i should never have gotten myself into in the first place. but the thing is, there are some things in this world where even if you try to stop it, it'll still happen. its something uncontrollable. beyond your limitations.....if you guys know what i mean =)

But u see, that was like the third time i meet him and he still remember what i told him the first time we met! and that friend of his had already forgotten who the hell i am! Ridiculous!

Anyway, thats a small bit about whats been happening in my damn life for the start of this year! Honestly speaking, i do not think this year is gonna be any different from any past years....nothing much or interesting can happen u know. so my life is gonna continue on its due course.

And school sucks my life out like hell man! Its boring, boring and boring. Nothing seems to have changed, well not that i did expect anything to u know....considering the fact that....alright. nv mind. Life just seem so stagnent and unteresting now. I wish O levls would come sooner than i know. so i could finish my O level exams and go poly! =) Mannnn! I'm so looking forward to go poly!

So thats all about my life...

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Stupid damn o level exam! i wish our load of homework isn't that much man! i really hate o levels and anything that cdomes with it! anyway, i've gotta go meet some stupid guy kevin today to go 4 some job interview he recommended me. paying pretty good money.

yea well, i know i shouldn't be looking for a jo this year and its nt like i need the money or anything but...well, seeing my mum work so hard to earn money and me doing nothing and always asking money from her make me feel so bad. its kinda like a sin!

anyway, i didn't know i could pass my n level man! i was so surprised when my form teacher told me that i pass that i didn't know what to say. no one thought i would pass anyway. considering the fact that i wasn't even studying that much bf the exams. to quote it, it was really last minute study.

and my mum got hospitalised like few days ago. which was really bad. and i missed her like hell. the house was so damn quite without her. but shes back nw and yeah!! everythings back to normal!=)=)=)

so yeah! i'm gonna study real hard this year and make sure i pass myn o level and surprise everyone and myself. so yeah!=)

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My life is currently going pretty well for me. As you guys know...i'm a super cheerful person by nature. Well yeah thats as long as no one pisses me off. haha. Anyway to sum up my life....these are some of the things that happened to me a few weeks ago. You see...i got kicked out of my part time job at marks and spencer. That asshole of a manager Dorothy actually scolded me and told me off in front of everyone. Hell to her! I was doing my work pretty well from what she told me and she told me i spoke well too so i don't see whats there for her to nag at me abt. Anyway, i'm happy i'm outta there. That place stinks if you ask me. Christina lee lee leng has been reeeeeeallllllllllllllly busy these few months ppl. And thats whats keeping happy. And it seems that i'm making a lot of new friends and theres this filipino guy that i met thats hot to the core. Hes currently studying and working part time too! Nice.

But i'm so worried i'll fail my exams. So worried. I really hope i pass well enough to go JC. Cause i wanna be a surgeon when i grow up. Thats MY ambition. It doesn't matter what anyone says. I don't give a damn anyway cause it doesn't matter what anyone thinks. Its still a dream anyway and its good to have a dream no matter what whether or not i'll be able to achieve it one day. Its better to have a dream something to push me on and to give me determination rather then to hang around aimlessly like some losers who're just doing what everyone else is doing. And trying to degrade anyone who has an ambition! Stupid asshole!

Anyway....heres cheers to life and i'm reallllllly enjoying my life at the moment ppl.
Life has never been better then this.
Cheers! And good luck to those taking their O-levels. YEAH!

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HOOOOOOOOOOOLLLLAAAA...

So long since i last updated my bloggy. And i just wanna say that there are lots of things happening in my life right now. Not all of it are that pleasant. But like i say, i've learn't to take things more easily.

First, lets talk about my mums birthday. My mum wanted me to go home early after school that day and so i did. But when i reach home, my maid told me she had went out and so i got so pissed off by her. Then she came back at around 5 plus or so and gave me a really sulky face. That was her birthday but that was what she showed me and then i found out later that it was bcos i hadn't given her the present when i wished her happy birthday that morning. Oh man! What a lame way to be angry about things like that. But everything turned out alright at the end of the day though.

Well....as for the rest of my life and what happen, i shall not say it here cos i do not wanna bring back the bad memories. But pleasant things did happen though and it was definitely memorable. But thats a long story. HAHA.....

School was alright though.But it seems that theres a lot of tensions arising. And my mum is pissing me off nuts!!! Sometimes i just wish things could be normal for one day.

But whatever it is.........heres CHEERS TO LIFE! XDXDXDXD....

Labels: WEEEEEEEEE.....

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HAPPPPPPPPPPYYYY.....

Ok! This is like so stupid.I went for my chinese oral yesterday and guess what! Alright lets talk about the passage first. The thing was...i couldn't understand what the passage was about and neither do i want to. But the thing was, there were just too many words which i didn't understand and don't know how to read no matter how i tried. Oh gosh! It was real disaster! And i was practically reading it word by word and it took me sooooooooooo long to finish reading that stupid passage i tell you! And then when i finally finish reading, i looked up and found two stone faced man looking at me. The look they gave me was like they were expecting me to say something or other! Oh god! It was terrible!Terrible!Terrible!Terrible!

Right then, i kinda wish i wasn't brought up from an english background you know. But then again, if i hadn't been then i probably wouldn't been able to speak english well too! Arrrrrgh....save me! I think i'm gonna flunk chinese too....(so dearest friends{you know who you are} you don't have to wish me any luck for chinese paper ok).

Disaster!I hadn't actually thought that it could be so bad as that. And today, during english, Miss Khai went and remind Mrs Poh to let those having oral be dismissed early so they could have their lunch before reporting for the oral at the hall.

So guess what happen! At 1 pm, she ask who was having oral and all the malays and even those who weren't having oral went out too! I didn't know that there were only 6-8 of us in the class only until i turned around and i got the biggest shock
! Almost the whole class was empty! Hilarious! Totally hilarious man! Everyone had ran away from her class without her knowing! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA......But maybe shes aware and just didn't want to say anything? You would never know what people are thinking of.

Well....and life is just sooooooo fun lately. I've been going to the beach with mummy lately...on weekends when i'm not working of course. It was damn nice! I just love the breeze when it blow past me and i love to walk so close to the waetr and touch it cause its just so nice. And the seashells....i love the seashells. But my mum always ask me not to pick anymore shells cause she says that they're all so ordinary and plain. But i told my mum i thought them beautiful.

And idiot! I went home and our maid minda laughed at me and said the shells that i've picked aer so ordinary and ugly. IDIOT! But thats fine! At least they're nice in my eyes yeah.....=D

Life is so sweet and stargazing is just so nice. Peaceful and nice.

Till then......i guess i had better study hard for N-Level like what everyone says. But i'm finding maths more and more difficult....Oh God! I need help!

And heres to Jaden>You better stop whatever rumours you've spread about that thing i tell you. Cause Yiling isn't gonna believe you anymore! So this is to you =p

Labels: hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiippppppppeeeeeeee

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Upon the stars...

Day 6:
I have been isolating myself for the past few days from everyone and everything.
I need time to sought out my life.
Its not that i'm trying to be unfriendly or anything okay people?
I just am not in the mood to talk.
Its not anything wrong that you guys have done thats making me so quiet.
But i just need time to think about things.
So leave me alone and i guess i'll be alright soon okay.
And good luck for your exams yeah people.
Do your best just like i am. Everything will work out fine
Just think positive.

Life is not that bad if you really think about it.
And thanks for being so concern.
I appreciate it.

Mr ong has said that he needs to see me today
Because of what i have done
So i'll be staying back in school until pretty late today and i'm arleady starving now.
I wonder what?

1 more week to getting my results.
And i'm hoping its sonmething good...but my six sense tells me otherwise.
Or maybe i'm just thinking too much.
I definitely hope so.

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A empty place...

Day 5:
It was an alright day today...nothing much happen and
i have finally paid the full amount to miss khai.
it was a very big sum of money.
$20.00 for class-T and $20.00 for family day carnival.
I didn't dare tell mummy as it was a big sum of money.
I had wanted to wait till i had enough to withdraw from my acount
but miss khai got irritated with me.

She hadn't look too happy when i had told her that i haven't ask my mum the other day.
I know how it felt like but i couldn't help it.
It was all i could do.
She doesn't like me was my impression of her whenever she talked to me...not that does all that often.
In fact, she rarely talk to me except to ask questions. This i felt awkward and stupid.

Like a forsaken child i just sat there thinking if i had done anything wrong.
Secretly, i despised her for who she was and everything that she possesed.
it was an untold secret.
And she in turn, thought i was {a troubled kid and a very quiet girl
A little abnormal and different}
But little did she know what had actually happen
No one did and neither did anyone bother to ask me

But i didn't mind...
as long as they left me alone

My mother and i went for a walk tonight
She talked to me and ask me what i've been thinking about these few days
and seeing as there was no need to lie, i told her...
My mind is in a mess and whatever the result is,
I'll just face up to it
I guess its time i learnt to be responsible for my own life.

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